Here I am. Sitting in front of keyboard and screen in my PJ’s, ready to let the words gush. I just had to write something this morning, because I miss writing.
I have always approached this blog as a labor of love–as a really fun job that requires and deserves my attention and care on a regular basis. I have written more in the past year than I ever have in previous seasons of my life, and I have discovered that the more I write, the more I have to write about. Letting loose my creativity has been like unstopping a spring that was always meant to flow freely, a vibrant stream that flows easily once you get it going. It flows fast and free, and it just feels so right. I love it.
I haven’t been able to devote as much time to writing lately.
My mornings haven’t been consistently conducive to writing in the past several months, so my husband and I worked out a time for writing and working on the blog in the afternoons. That vacant time block has dissipated in the past few weeks, as I’ve been doing more math tutoring in the afternoons. It pays well, so right now it’s just something I need to do. I’m okay with that, and I really do enjoy helping my students understand math. But I miss writing.
Seasons of life come and go. I know that the seasons will change once again before I know it. I expect that as the holiday season fully arrives and then comes to a close, my schedule will change–once again allowing me to write to my heart’s content. I wait with patience, trusting that the Lord has everything in His strong, able hands.
I really am living my dream right now, and I’m so thankful. I am thankful that I get to be with my kids every day. I am thankful for our home and all the provisions we get to enjoy, realizing that most families in the world get by on much less than we do. I am thankful for a wonderfully supportive family that I get to enjoy time with. I am thankful for a church family that loves us so unconditionally and believes in us. Thankfulness keep hope alive in my heart and let’s me see things through the right lens.
Are you in a season where hope is delayed? Are there things you desire to do–need to do even–but you can’t do them right now? Wait patiently, because God knows what He’s doing. Patience can be difficult sometimes, but it’s only developed in times when we have to wait for something we want or need. Ask God for the grace to wait patiently for what you desire and to enjoy the blessings along the way.
Rest in His love for you, graceful mama. Rest in Him, knowing that He’s got you. Embrace the reality that He’s got your best interest in mind. He will never leave you stranded! Delight yourself in Him, and He will give you the desires of your heart.